You know that feeling?
The way you feel life is passing you by and you’re just going through the motions? When you feel distant, disconnected from your body, your emotions, and the people in your life?
Yeah… nothing quite gets to you so you don’t get upset much.
But there’s something missing…
What is it?
Perhaps if you stop to consider, life seems a blur. Nothing stands out… Everything is a bit… muted.
How did that happen?
Sometimes, in the quest to stop feeling our ‘negative emotions’ so much, we distract ourselves. We numb ourselves out.
Common and well-known ways to do this are watching TV, playing video games, shopping, eating, drinking, drugs, pain-killers… even working can become a distraction when we do it excessively.
But… Has it ever occurred to you that maybe too much ‘thinking’ can also be a numbing agent?
When we’re involved so much with our left brain, explaining, analyzing, rationalizing, justifying, evaluating… we don’t leave much room to take in our life from different avenues.
Our body, our senses, our emotions…
Aghhh! But that’s what we were trying to avoid, right?
We don’t want to feel so deeply and, our body, being the interface through which that happens (because emotions are nothing but sensations in the body that are triggered by thoughts), also gets left aside in the process.
We breath shallowly, avoiding getting our breath all the way into our belly, lest it awaken some unwanted feeling in that emotional center of our body.
We analyze everything that happens around us to death, because it’s much easier than allowing ourselves to feel the slef-doubt, anger, sadness, or feeling of separatedness, of being different.
So life becomes less vibrant. Less… alive, because we are leaving a whole side of ourselves behind.
We create that split in ourselves, precisely by allowing ourselves to take life in only through a part of us.
So how do we reverse this?
This is the true meaning of ‘yoga,’ an ancient practice aimed at aligning our whole selves with our center.
You might know it as those weird positions that make your body hurt in places you didn’t know existed.
But there’s much more to yoga than that. It’s not just the weird positions, but a way of life.
The same goes for Taj Chi, Chi Gong, and many other forms of martial arts.
These are systems that were developed to foster a more integrated life.
You could take advantage of that and start your own practice.
But it’s not necessary.
You can also start becoming aware of in which ways you numb yourself out, and perhaps choose to allow yourself to feel whatever is running through you without trying to explain it away.
And through you it runs, because nothing is permanent so you can be sure this feeling is only temporary as well.
When you do that, you will notice that you feel more integrated and at peace, because there is no longer a nasty part of you you’re trying to hide from yourself.
This is a practice of self-love, allowing yourself to be you in your totality.
To be whole.
What are some of the practices you use to feel more whole?